Published by Self-Published on November 10th 2015
Genres: Adult, Contemporary, Romance
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“What?” I stared back at him, unblinking.
He moved closer, taking my face in his hands. “I love you, Evie. I look into the future, and the only thing I see clearly is you. Marry me.”
What’s an eighteen-year-old girl who was madly in love with her nineteen-year-old boyfriend say?
Of course, I said yes.
Twenty-four hours later, I married Adam Gunner at a Vegas chapel to the sounds of “Livin’ on a Prayer” by Bon Jovi. Not the best omen. I get that now.
Then, exactly one week later, I left him. I walked out, leaving behind my wedding ring, annulment papers, and my heart, and he never knew why.
I haven’t seen him since. Not in ten long years.
Now, he’s here, standing before me. Looking at me with nothing but hurt and hatred in his eyes, he wants answers.
Answers I can’t give.
Reviewed by Joanne
*I received an E-ARC in exchange for review*
I kiss her fiercely. I kiss her with ten years of pent-up anger and need and longing and desperation. And I know, in that second when my lips touch hers, that I won’t regret one moment of what’s about to happen. Even when it hurts so badly that I think I’ll regret it, wish it had never happened, I won’t.
When Samantha Towle released the synopsis of When I Was Yours, I thought it sounded like my kind of book. Now that I’ve finished, I can honestly say it certainly was my kind of book! I love second chance romance stories, and this one ticked all the boxes. I was sucked into Adam and Evie’s story from the very beginning, and I couldn’t turn the pages fast enough. I loved it. Hell, they got married to Living on a Prayer by Bon Jovi – what’s not to love?!
Adam Gunner stole my heart from the beginning. At 18 years old and experiencing love for the first time, he threw himself head first into the unknown. He’d never been in a relationship before – one night stands were his thing, but he wanted to have everything with Evie. His family were rich, but hadn’t grown up in a loving family, his parents didn’t want him, or each other. You’d think this would make him a jerk, but he was so kind, funny, sweet, considerate and a perfect gentleman with Evie.
Evie didn’t have the privileges that Adam had grown up with, but she had a loving relationship with her father and younger sister. She was shy and inexperienced with boys but really blossomed and opened up with Adam. I adored how Samantha Towle captured captured the teenage romance so well, those first times, the feeling that nothing will ever come between you, and the little bubble that you live in where everything is perfect. Until it all comes crashing down.
Ten years later and Adam is not in a good place. He never got over Evie leaving him so suddenly, and even though he tried he couldn’t forget her. When he suddenly runs into her one day it opens the floodgates to all those feelings and memories. The story goes back and forth from past to present and it’s easy to see why Adam is so conflicted. They were so in love and as the story developed I couldn’t turn the pages fast enough because I needed to know why Evie gave everything up. I just kept thinking who in their right mind would give up what those two had?!
Older Evie really frustrated me. As the story is told from both view points, I knew that she was still in love with Adam, and it pained her that she had hurt him so much. She had a chance to heal that rift by finally giving Adam the answers he needed, to tell him the real reason why she just disappeared, but her refusal to do this had me shouting at my kindle “JUST TELL HIM!”
It’s safe to say that I was on Adams side completely. He didn’t deserve to be left hanging for ten years, and I wanted him to find happiness again. I was even prepared for that happiness to be without Evie if need be. However, if ever a couple was meant to be together it’s these two. Their love was so strong, even after all that time apart, but Adam had been betrayed and left so heartbroken I wasn’t sure how (if ever) they would be able to move past that.
I know this is just a Band-Aid over the bullet hole she put in my chest, but I need it. I need her. I couldn’t stop now even if I tried. And I don’t want to. I really don’t.
Every Samantha Towle book has its own theme tune for me, a song that makes me think of the characters whenever I hear it. The Mighty Storm has Mr Brightside by The Killers, Revved has David Guetta’s Dangerous, but this story has so many. Bruno Mars – When I Was Your Man, Adele’s Hello, Bon Jovi….. I could go on. Whenever I hear those songs I will think of Adam and Evie.
This story had it all. It had characters I fell in love with, tension, angst, passion, sizzling chemistry, smoking hot bedroom scenes, and it had an epilogue that left me in tears.
“God, I love you, Adam Gunner.” “And I love you, Evie Taylor. I’ve loved you since I was eighteen years old, I will love you till the day I die, and I’ll keep on loving you after that.”
Making my way through the hotel, I exchange pleasantries with the staff on duty. When I reach the coffee shop, I push open the door and step straight into the past.
She’s standing behind the counter. Her face is turned slightly to the right, her attention on the TV mounted on the wall, and her hair is pulled back into a ponytail.
But it’s her.
I feel like a speeding train has hit me, and I’m pretty sure my heart has stopped beating.
It’s really her.
“Evie?” I breathe out her name, like I’m taking my first real breath in a very long time.
Her body stiffens at the sound of my voice. And I watch as her face turns my way. Those big whiskey-colored eyes that I fell in love with all those years ago meet mine, and my world stands still.