Published by Self-Published on 23rd August 2013
Genres: Adult, Contemporary, Romance
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One glance was all it took…
I'm a cheater.
I'm a liar.
My whole life is a mess.
I love a man.
No, I love two men…
One makes love to me. The other sets me on fire.
One is my rock. The other is my kryptonite.
I'm broken, lost, and disgusted with myself.
But I can't stop. This is my story.
My broken love story.
REVIEWED BY JOANNE
*I received an eARC of this book in exchange for an honest review*
I have to start this review by saying that I went in blind. Yes that’s right, I didn’t read the blurb before I started so I had no idea what this book was about, or how much it would test me.
I know now that the blurb is a quote from the main character Cathy – which gives away the fact that she is cheating, that she’s in love with two men and is torn between them. I know that people are saying that they won’t or don’t want to read it because of the cheating aspect and believe me, when I realised where the story was going, I was apprehensive about continuing. However, the writing had me sucked in and I couldn’t put it down.
I don’t know how I feel about Cathy, the main character. When we first meet her, she is already emotionally detached and withdrawing from Ben, (her wonderfully perfect husband) after a series of life events have taken their toll on her and their relationship. I want to hate her for the way she treats Ben but the story flits between now and the past, where we get to read about how their relationship started and how everything was perfect between the two of them for years before it all started going downhill. There we get to see the Cathy that Ben fell in love with, but its also where I fell in love with Ben too.
Ben is just the perfect man. He’s kind, he’s considerate, he’s attentive, he’s loving, and he is HOT. He would do anything for Cathy and this is why I debated continuing to read when I realised what was going to happen. My heart broke for him and for how he was betrayed.
Cathy is asked to pick up her new boss and his family at the airport, and subsequently meets Arsen. This is where I started to think ‘uh oh!’. I knew that the book was called Arsen. I knew that her husband WASN’T called Arsen. I knew then that the writing was on the wall!
I really didn’t want to like Arsen. He makes his feelings towards Cathy obvious from the start. He appears to be the typical rich kid, who gets what he wants and isn’t used to hearing the word NO. When he discovers that Cathy is married he promises to back off and just be friends. This seems to work for a while, and they work alongside each other with a bit of ‘harmless’ flirting going on, until the devastation of an event in Cathy’s life rips the last piece of her heart out leaving her numb. Instead of turning to Ben she pushes him away, and Arsen is the one who she turns to to help take the numbness away. He is her therapy, but while he may be saving Cathy, he’s destroying her marriage and destroying Ben. I hated him for relentlessly pursuing a married woman and it wasn’t until the end of the book that Arsen redeemed himself in my eyes.
Even now I’m thinking ‘What did I just read?’. It was like a train-wreck happening in slow motion. You know its going to happen, but you just can’t take your eyes away. I can’t believe that this is Mia Asher’s first book. The emotions and events described in the book had me on edge, feeling sick, and heart broken. And the sex scenes, Holy hotness, the sex scenes! They had my glasses steamed up, and left me needing a cold shower!
I give this book 5 gut wrenching, stomach churning, heart breaking, angst filled, kindle throwing stars!
Opening my legs with his hands, he enters me slowly, taking his time, making the moment last. When he’s all the way in, he pauses as we stare at each other, both of us breathing heavily. Slowly, he brings a hand to caress my naked shoulder. “I’ve wanted to do this since the moment I kissed you on the street.”
“Have sex with me?” I ask.
“No.” He bites my lower lip. “Make you mine.”
This time he makes love to me. There is no roughness in his treatment of my body, and I don’t miss it. This feels as if he is telling me with his body what he cannot voice yet. This feels like we are imprinting each other to our bodies and to our hearts. Moaning, I grab the back of his neck and pull him down for a kiss, getting lost in the moment.